Leap of Faith

Sometimes I close my eyes and wonder exactly what my life would be like if all of my dreams came true. I mean I am not complaining my life is really not that bad but I wonder how much different it would be if I could truly cast my fears to the side and truly jumped into my dreams head first. I want to be an author,motivational speaker,life counselor,CEO of non profit organization.
I don't know why I can't overcome these fears I mean I almost died before my 18th birthday that should have catapulted me into living my dreams but it did the opposite. Ever since my mom died I have taken so much upon myself and I haven't been able to let go but I'm ready to,  I have to because I can't continue  to live in the shadows of my own dreams. Don't get me twisted I have accomplished some GREAT things but I know that I could be so much MORE. I was created to be great and I have to cast my fears to the side and take that leap of faith. I deserve happiness I want live out gods purpose for it I need to begin now, I feel like each day that I don't,  I'm disrespecting god for sparing my life in 2003.
Spiritual and emotional growth are apart of my 360 change and releasing my fears