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Forever Strong

Having moment of weakness or uncertainty does not make you weak or less of an believer. It just makes you human. Sometimes I feel like my soul, my essence were drafted in this battle between the young lady I am and the grown woman I want to be. Don't get me twisted I appreciate all that I have, all that I have accomplished and even the mistakes that I have made. I thought for awhile I thought I was truly happy but then I realize in order to be happy I had to have something happenings and that's when the battle ensued. About two months ago I got sick and I thought it was just another asthma episode but it was so much more, I was drowned in a sea of medical diagnosis and medications that I could  pronounce only because I studied medical books as a child. I believe that is when the battle began when I was face to face with my own mortality (no worries I have nothing fatal) but it made me realize that my life was missing something. So, I set out on the mission for a 360 change

Unbreak My Heart

No one can  prepare you for heart break and no matter how hard you try to fight it or find a work around when your heart breaks it hurts. When your heart breaks it also stirs up insecurities that you have about yourself, past painful relationships and even loneliness. Some of us want to believe that its not us its their lost and some of us believe that we are the reason for the pain. But truthfully, you never know what it was that caused you and that person to separate. But you can allow that pain to stop you from living. You may wonder what makes me an authority on broken hearts and truthfully I am not. But I have had my heart broken recently and I felt inferior, I felt ashamed,lonely, confused and hurt. I mean a part of me even wanted to even try and get him back and even went as far as having sex with him. But sex ain't love but then I saw him the real him. Most time when we are in love we see the person we want but not who that person really is. So, the true test of love is w

Moving on

Although hard and confusing at times, moving on is a integral part of growing up and last ten years my life has been going in the same destructive cycle. I wish I could say it was my idea to end it but it was more of a crash and burn. But as painful as it maybe I had to come to grips with my present,let go of my past and move on to my future. Moving on for me consisted of 1. Embrace the pain and confront the confusion but stop running 2. Let it go even though it maybe hard the only way to move on is to let it go, forgive and say farewell 3. Look for the lesson. Everything that we do in life has the potential to be an learning experience all you have to do is open yourself up to the possibility. 4. MOVE !! I moved on from bad relationships by slowly eliminating all communications and I moved my residence. Just move, get up and physically move yourself and then you can move the state of your mind. Hope this helps